Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Silly and Pointless

Sometimes I get very confused and wonder why.

Why did I attend an Episcopal Church service with Alan on Sunday and cry my eyes out?

Why do I continue to allow my home teachers to see me even though I already know I can't go back to the church?

Why do I spend time at work writing blog posts and flirting with boys that are thousands of miles away?

Why am I so hard on myself?  I've lost 20 pounds in the last year, and yet I'm constantly depressed at how fat I am.

I'm going to get fired one of these days.


  1. you have *visiting* teachers? how did you pull that off? :P at least they probably give you nice object lessons and bring you treats ever month :)

  2. Hahaha, I always forget that women are visiting teachers and men are Home teachers... I never understood why they were any different... they essentially do the same thing minus the priesthood. I guess it just goes back to those strict gender roles. I've corrected the post.

  3. Ah home teachers I still got one actually work with him too he has never actually come over. I'm secretly happy though the lessons bore me! World is a crazy place mate I've spent most of my day at work doing nothing and reading blogs and facebook you'll figure it all out one day I'm sure we all will

  4. You live in Blade Runner City, so you have two choices: be depressed, or join the replicants.

    That's how it was fifteen years ago, anyway. I left after the earthquake. I'd like to hope things have changed, but doubt it very much.

    If you feel shitty, it might just mean you're retaining your humanity. Good for you.