Friday, July 3, 2009

October 21st, 2007

I’m starting to get more involved at church. It’s quite amazing, because it’s taken 4 years, but because of my fear and lack of confidence, I generally have felt unworthy or unwanted at church. It’s funny that as I’ve worked with Bishop O. I haven’t stopped being gay, but I have stopped feeling so angry and guilty about being gay, masturbating and hell, even pornography. I was expecting to be “cured” of this, but maybe the cure is learning your own self worth and realizing that guilt and fear are from Satan.—Love, confidence, trust—these are the tools of the Lord.

Well it’s time for bed. Keep faithful, love thy neighbor, and God will bless you and keep you. Good night!

3 comments:

  1. "maybe the cure is learning your own self worth and realizing that guilt and fear are from Satan.—Love, confidence, trust—these are the tools of the Lord"

    I love this.

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  2. i second scotts comment.... i think that learning ones own self worth is probably one of the most difficult challenges for all people. its so easy to hate things about ourselves. too feel inadequate.

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  3. It took me several years to work through letting go of so much guilt. Now that I have I will never go back to that way of life. Ever.

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